DRAMA QUEEN

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  1/22/2020 10:02pm 

I have this idea about myself. I am not the most social or the most anything, let me tell it. Somedays are genuinely better than others as far as confidence and clarity go. I had to take full responsibility for myself. Like, right now. It felt to me, moments ago and for probably weeks. I'd gotten too comfortable with blaming everything on everybody else around me for my reality. It was nobody's fault; in fact, there was no fault. But, I didn't give a fuck enough. I loved me don't get me wrong, but I didn't give a fuck enough about me to make my World all about Self, obviously. & to Thrive with certain things, you had to be able to do this. I needed just enough egomania to post myself, my art and ideas on social media consistently be it for personal pleasure or business branding. I couldn't get past Me though.

After you do the writing, what do you write?

I guess I'm having trouble finding the desire to make people want to listen to me. But again, I have to remind myself..maybe fuck them? It's really about you. Write about, makeup & being a bartender, being a solid female and human being, being in a real-life relationship. Being a good "strong" friend who often feels so loved and misunderstood, in the same breath — write about beating the odds of everyday life, and the 9-5 corporate America schemes and BS — having dreams and realities that never aligned. Never wanting anything other than to beat the odds & do numbers. Write about Life, instead of wanting to literally "Preach Power." I learned it really disinterested people. Try Drama Queen, instead. Tell the Truth. Focus on the elements of what creates your power and freedom of expression. Before you know it, simultaneously the mission is being complete & on auto-pilot. 

I'm glad I took the time for this, to push myself up the hill rather than going nowhere fast. I know I am powerful, to say the least, but really. When you so Real is scary in a world full of Fraud shit. That is all. I trust God within x above Me. I know there's a place and space for a GoOD one. Is ALL GOD. 

xx

P.S THANK You formally. I Love Us.♥

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