MVP

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 3:09pm – 71920

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Last night heading out, this man I was having a conversation with said too me:

“You are not a bad bitch, you are good. Even though you think you are and would like to be, you just a good girl. and You’re a bby. Just be patient…you just need a change in scenery, you need to be around Bosses…then, maybe you will recognize your worth differently.” 

He was right.

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Im really not a bad bitch, and never been. The only thing I may ever bring to the table that could be 'bad' is my mouth and attitude. Everything else was Built. I was a Built Bitch. I stood on Solidarity in Self. Figuring it out // learning and growing and knowing your Self to create a Life that made sense for each individual… Therefore, It wasnt logical to 'play' wit niggas, mind no business that didn’t pay you, nor worry about bitches and nothing they was on or into. This Life was about Me and point A-too-B. Point A, being where I am now, where I struggle, my flaws, my environment, my challenges, and lessons to be learned and point B, where I'm going, where I chose, what I'm destined for, & alll them Desires. The simp shit in the middle that the girls entertained was beside me literally. I ain't never really liked to play.

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Because of, it made me naturally a lil hard-body. Easily anti-prone. I couldn't understand this 'Single'/Social Life? and all the playing people played. Lol, I tried to love so long I didn't want for nothing else. I guess I too could B a special playa when the game called for Me but I mostly played the Bench, consciously and well. This game couldn't fck wit me. I knew & meant this in more ways than 1.

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For the most part, I stayed True & Distant. An MVP:  from Self to Self.

Remain focused and built to accomplish the task you set out for which is to Create//Build//Stand Tall and Live/Love what you designed… F-ck errthang else. 

Thank You, within x above. 

IloveUs.♥️



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