UNTAMED

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5:55am x 8/7/2020

I decided to type instead of write to keep up with my thoughts better. I found it much more effective when I am all over the place. 

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This has been a Power Period. period.(lmao so lame). Its been a good different. Around this time yesterday morning. I had just made the conscious effort and decision for the 3rd time to put my phone down and stop scrolling. I rolled me a Blunt. Took my book, 'Untamed', and went for my first morning session.Knowing prior to opening it, that Big G [nickname i gave my girl, Glennon] was gon’ give me my whole life. I went into the rest of my read with high hopes and wide eyes. I ended with big clarity, confidence, and wet ones. Girl, Big G was all of that and then some. I finished knowing that:

I/We was some muthafuckin Cheetahs. 😽

I laughed and I cried, often reading UnTamed for various valid reasons. I loved love. I loved Real Things. I lived for Authenticity & Truth. My girl, Glennon gave me all of these executed perfectly through Clarity & God. Within & Above. Some of the most valuable truths she reminded & reiterated to me were:

  • We Can do Hard Things
  • We are meant to Be Untamed
  • Be A Cheetah.
  • Be Yourself. 
  • Stay Close

I caught myself more than once today telling myself all these things aloud .. And anytime there was Real Life takeaways from a Read that you could apply immediately and effortlessly too?… The purpose had been served. 

Thank You so much Big G! I sung it to the world so much I hoped she felt me, but I aint worry, I could wait until we met. Did I mention she was from round here? Yall know that VA Love hit different though. I am writing Her a letter. A Big G, for the Big G. A Gift full of Gold & Gratitude, the Gold being Love and assurance that she is not alone at all. I am the We. 

The Love/Law is Universal. 

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I felt Powerful. I felt Life. I felt Love. I felt Ready. 

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Right after, finishing my book and smiling back at the Sun rising and shining on Me, an extra ray came walking up the stairs…I love my Brother. I could not help or hide the Light that had shined on/in me. He said “You smiling bright and early” smiling back, was pretty normal for him. Idk what I responded, just remembered how I felt. Literally fucking in--powered. And then I came to Meditate. 

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I cleaned all the shit from around my pillow to ensure it was as close to just Me and God as possible. Cleanliness is next to Her, they said. I got on my pillow. I was ready to sink. And being that I'd successfully vamp’d all through the night (again) I went ahead and did my 5 minute morning Gratitude. I grounded myself into my pillow. Straightened my shoulders, rotated my neck. Breathed in through my stomach and nose. Out in sighs through the mouth. Returned to normal breathing. Into the Knowing. Staying as long as necessary. As long as it  felt right. 

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The beauty in the journey and growth of Meditation is that once you’ve seen the Light and Know the Knowing. You can really get there GodSpeed. If that’s really where you tryna go. Sometimes we got in our own way. Detours & pitstops, all in the head.I needed 27 mins of meditation yesterday and Monday I could not get through 7. It was interesting to observe b/c the interruptions where coming from inside. The head [mind] to be exact. During the longer session, I caught a few pulsings of the Light. It was always right on time. It was always like God. The Real Thing. Right there in my skin. In my veins. In all 7 chakras/centers of me saying “You are Right. This is Real. Stay Close” --- that was the most important one Big G, taught Me. Stay Close. To God. To You. We in this together. Forever. I/You cant never Leave Me….

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I Am that I Am. Built. Made. Solid. Knowing. Truth.

I Am Something Else. 

Keep Dreaming. Keep Creating. Stay Close. 

ILoveUs.♥


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