SOULCITY-GIRL

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 406am x Tuesday // 090820

"Maybe I'm just a wanderer?"

Pinterest has my imagination alive and well. I feel good b/c of how much easier it is to stay Close to Me b/c I am focused on it. 

I am feminine creativity waiting to express my realm of reality as a Goddess walking in the essence of a young black girl from the duuuurtay, [RVA] *insider* lmao. Fr. I am All that I Am. I no longer and will never diminish her again. God Is Good & God is within here. #period.

I was able or I was aligned to meditate for over an hour this evening. I think that was one of the longest sessions I ever sat through but they were very necessary for where I was in the moment and how I got to where I am right Now. I was guided towards chakra awareness through meditation. I wanted to feel myself but really, I wanted to learn something. It worked and I feel really good, alive, and close. I want to remain here and when lost feel comfort and clarity knowing I will/can get back through my breath and understanding on the knowledge of the Essence of All that I Am. 

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They can't fuck with Me. 

Or rather, for the safety and serenity of Self. I can't fuck with them. No harm or shade intended but all Truth at hand. There are no desires or depth where there is none. I can only Be all that I Am and know what I know Instinctively. I had full potential and preparation around the Alchemy of my Life. It is happening right now and everything is aligned. Even the Payne. 

I am thankful and I am learning and loving to Relax. Relax in my moments and Surrender to my Now. B/c it is all that I have and God made me a woman in the image and likeness of her meaning I was not designed to Struggle. I was not designed in the idea of Lack or Insecurity, Emptiness nor Doubt. I was born Perfect, Abundant, On & In purpose. God knew and chose Me. & It was only my Role // Duty, and Dream to fulfill the Truth of my Destiny. 

I am rambling and telling the Truth. It was so necessary to get this up off me. All of my creative efforts go hand in hand. My whole Life goes hand in hand. Everything is connected to everything. It all fits & makes sense. 

A Perfect Puzzle and Perfect Prize. 

I'm a Soul City Girl lol. I love words, putting them together, finding their rhythm and story and how they best flow. I love correlating my meanings & truths into theirs. Treating them like the Core of Life that they really are. I love typing & I LOVE writing. I love being left-handed & weird. I love reading & books. I LOVE Music. I love communication. I love conversation, only safe, real ones. I love understanding. I love learning. I love growing. I love, Love. I Love Rashai.♥

God is/has done some beautiful big crzy amazing things with Me and I ain't even did shit yet. 

I Am Thank-full and close. I know God will get and keep me T[here]. For all my Life/After. 

So it Is. 

Thank You, Reader. If You Struggling at all, understand and Relax knowing that it's an Inside Thing. You will Get T[here]. Just Stay Close. 

Thank You, within x above. 

-MissPayne.

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