LIL ITALY

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225pm – 09/18/20

Thank God..within x above Me. I feel blessed & better now.

 I'm proud of myself…I ain't send no dumbie txt or make no mistakes I'll regret. I fought the decisions long and hard and decided: Fuck that shit…Im too built. I'm coming out this mud by my damn. This storm damn near weathered anyway.

We GoOD.

    I'd been being mindful of my mind, observing my life, and pouring into myself as often as I could. I needed it. Re-membering with God through meditation and writing and staying close to Us as possible. Some days still better than others but, learning how to navigate. I be trying….

Visiting this sacred Waterfall for Life & Nourishment had been significant as well. Some days the water so cool and calm, I'd just float automatically. Other days it could be very warm, a sensational sting from the temperature that took adjustment and optimism.

Sometimes I showed up bare & pure and other times I came fully clothed & armored, ready or at war with my whole Self. The full experience was an experiment and vacation based around Enlightenment. A term defined and differentiated through every individual. 
 
T(here), we clarified lessons we might be missing or misunderstanding in our physical realms. Every day I went, I observed, I learned, & I understood. I used to go with a friend and enjoyed his company actually, But, it was at the peak of experience where I recognized this Kid, couldn't swim. A vibe until it wasn't, I continued my journey with no pity nor Payne....Back to the Water.

It was here, that I grasped, I must respect man's wishes and man’s moves because his actions would always speak volumes to his words. Here, I re-membered that I'd forgot, what we stress & struggle with, we push away from us further through Lack of Peace, with deepest Desire and Highest Source. At the waterfall, I recognized fully for the first time, that It was Just Us Here, Me: 
my High, my Low & God. & forever it would Be, just like That.

I prayed before and after the experience to live this Law.

When the Sun don’t shine, the Whole world be lacking. 

Know what you Know, all ways -- especially in the Dark. 


Is all T(here).
We GoOD.
♥

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