ONE RIDE

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2:08pm – 10/12/20

For days, almost a full week now, I've been trying to find the words and composure to express what I feel...I'd also been trying to be the observer to the moods and the moments…Not being so stuck in my head.
She'd been taking me for that ride….
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Between my mama nursing the GrimReaper [ who, was too still, an angel, but another story for another day.] The deep disconnect and inclination with loving a lie and running from the illusion of this Self that I believed to know and desired to love. I'm exhausted and poised in my, Fuck It. 

Fuck Them, Fuck This, and Fuck Allat. I just don’t know…I just don’t care. 

Self to Self has advised: 
Pls, Step away from the Cliff. 
Pls, Calm Down. 
Pls, Relax. 
Pls, Forgive Yourself. 
Pls, Move On. 
Pls Focus. 
Pls Flow. 
Pls, Align. 
Pls, Surrender. 
Pls Slow Down. 
Pls, Keep Up. 
Pls Just Be. 

Pls Pls Pls….Find Rashai and let her Know The Whole World is looking for her to fulfill her destiny, just like this within/For her Self. & To Relax.

Fuck all things, that are not sourced from in Here or in Love. All things that are not associated with the Whole, will cease. Let Her know, she is exactly where she needs to be to get W[here] she wants to go. Tell Her, She is doing good and she is doing her best and that is just enough. Remind Her, of what she already Know and keep it etched in her focus that Is All God. & There is No Thing or Being better fit for Her, but Her. There is no Space for lack/illusion when One. 
The only Role and Purpose is to Ride, Be, Relax, Create, repeat. 

Re-member, Live this Truth as Law and Life will Flourish into what we Always knew was destined. 
That’s all…
Enjoy the Ride.

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